Breaking up is hard to cope with

Not having a good night. Next week would have been one year since we met. It's been six hours since I dropped him off and I am going insane. Does the pain get better? Am I going to be able to sleep again? We talked, well he talked, on the phone for an hour just now. I feel awful. I know this is for the better....I just don't know what I'm going to do without him. He was my best friend. And my first real love. And I....I'm going to miss him for a long time.

I never used to be this weak.